Wow, I survived.

The comprehensive exam is done, done, done.

I really can't believe it. I submitted it at 5am and Dr. ____ sent me a reply about 1pm telling me it looked very good. Could it be that I'm finally finished with this ordeal? No more "I hate Penn State" sessions!?

I should feel something, but I am so drained I just can't seem to accept it.

huh.

Just for kicks I finished another project that's been hanging over me for months. Did that right after I finished the paper (at, like 5:30am).

So it's done - it's really done. I wonder what happens next - I guess I'll get my diploma in the mail at some point (I'd rather be run over than have to go to another graduation ~ graduations, weddings and funerals are the activities I dislike most in this world).

4 hours and 20 more words - that's 5 words an hour!

Ugh

So I have been flipping through blogs like crazy and I came to three conclusions.

1. There are a lot of spam blogs - does anyone actually read them?
2. There are many people out there who are more boring than me! Wow!
3. Some people either have really exciting lives or really great imaginations.

What does this have to do with my exam, well er, absolutely nothing.

I have been singing the rocky song to try to psyche myself up - not really working.


I really do like cheese (was reading my intro line again).

So what am I stuck on you may ask? Ha there really arn't any you's out there, but if there really was they may ask themselves this question. The question is, What is a question you would be asked at a job interview that you would have difficulty answering, and how would you answer it? - Sounds easy doesn't it???? Well, now you have to remember this is a graduate level question where the response is expected to be in depth and relate to concepts and , uh, stuff (well now that does sound intelligent!

Anyway the q for me is about leadership style. iNFps don't have a reputation as leaders and to add to that I test as an 'originator' on the Change Style indicator and fall strongly into the HT/HR section of the LEAD Leadership Style. In otherwords I am a big picture visionary who works best when leading the charge for change. I'm the cheerleader and the idealist. I'd probably be most like Lenin in my leadership style.... Yea that will go over well in an interview.

Interviewer: Describe your leadership style
Me: Much like Lenin, minus the "violent" overthrow of the existing order.
Interviewer: Ah, so just the overthrow of the exisiting order to implement a more just work place for the proletariat masses?
Me: Um, era, right.
Interviewer: OK then,.... next candidate please.


I really have to finish this test.

My brain is a void

Well this is brilliant. I am still sitting at the table trying to finish this stupid exam - it's 24 hours later and I've written all of 5 pages! Woohoo. I can't believe how slow I am. SSSSSS LLLLL OOOOO WWWWWWW.........

Ok, perhaps my problem is that I have the entire planet at my fingertips, or perhaps it is that I've decided that it's really important to watch the Ghost Hunter marathon on Sci Fi, or perhaps it's the need to read every blog I can find, or the need to go out for a walk to take a break from all this writing.
Humm

Actually I think this is harder than usual because it could very well be the last college paper I'll have to do - and considering that I've been in school continuously since I was in pre-school and I'm now 38 ~ well it's a bit daunting to say the least.

blah blah blah

I doubt the six Sam Adams Beers and Ales are helping speed me along *hick*. I really did have some deep and insightful thoughts I was going to post, but I'm really really tired at this moment and my witty insight has turned to a general, 'duh'. Ah well.

Begin the Begin

Well, a blog.

I have no idea where this is going ... if it is going anywhere. I suppose that I'll just write and see what happens.

As usual I am in the middle of avoiding something really important by do something completely unimportant. I wonder if I am deliberately sabotaging myself or if I am just stupid? Hummm... Oh yes, I NEED to finish my comprehensive exam but this blog thing is absolutely vital and I must do it right at this moment!

Ok - I figured it out, I am stupid.

Perhaps I'll go work on the exam and come back to this later.
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Who am I kidding, it's that damn blank page mocking me. It's not that I don't know the answers to this question... for some reason I just can't seem to start. Argh.

Wouldn't it be cool if we really did have red eyes?

blah - well that's deep. Wonder what is the appeal of these things?